Tuesday, February 24, 2009

The Right Track

We have been through the process of writing an IEP with 3 different school districts in the last 8 months and today I finally signed something. The one we wrote in our new district is by far the strongest of the 3 and the only one that states that a deaf school is the best placement for Ethan. It occurred to me today as I signed and dated the final document that it would be really nice if I had an IEP for myself. It would have goals that pertain to taking care of my own basic needs and there would of course be support and accountability built into the contract.

It’s so easy to get caught up in the role of parenting a child, but especially one with so many issues that are under constant care and consideration. I've put so much of my mental and physical being into parenting Ethan, that I've neglected to care for myself on some pretty basic levels. Moving to this place has enabled me to finally relax in the knowledge that Ethan’s needs are being thoughtfully addressed by wonderful and talented professionals. Seeing him thrive here has made it much easier to change my focus, or at least widen the scope. I’m trying to take naps (I don’t sleep well due to Ethan’s continued sleep disturbances) and I've been making wiser choices about what I eat. I have enrolled in an exercise class that I really enjoy and while he is at school I’m spending less time creating and maintaining to-do lists and more time taking baths or reading for pleasure. I have even been so bold as to schedule a couple of doctor appointments for myself. It feels good to let go of the reins a little bit and let other people work their magic with Ethan. I think he likes it as much if not more than I do.